Emma Grzonkowski
It's always been my dream to become an artist, drawing has always interested me and as a kid I loved nothing less than to be in my personal idealistic world, sitting for hours, attempting to encapsulate my frolicsome imagination and put all my sketches down on paper.
The will to create my very own vision was sparked, and if I was fighting with something, I'd often ask my pa to draw it for me. I'd watch him intently and after pinning the drawing up on my bedroom wall I might copy it repeatedly till I got it right.
However the 1st masterpiece I ever made was on the backseat of his new auto, a pretty drawing of a flower in bright blue biro the necessity to create was just that powerful.
Art continued to be my main focus, at home, all though college, and then on to 6th form university, at Sir John Deanes University here I was urged to push my technical capability, referring to the study of the great Experts .
I went on to study fine art and design, at Chester Varsity . It was here that I was given free reign to really experiment, we received no bounds and I had to find my private style, which was brilliant. It was in the 2nd year of my degree that disaster struck ; a special person was taken away from me in a unexpected and lethal automobile accident. My full world was ripped to shreds and I was fully lost and in looking for reasons answers and solace, I turned to the single thing which I felt couldn't be taken way from me, my painting. The foundation and desire to color from the soul developed.
I ended up painting continually, as a release in an ever lively and frequently delirious demeanour, each painting reflecting my search to find inner peace. I was striving to do the best that I could in honour of my soul mates memory and to make him proud, I fought thru my degree, and finished with a body of design which was actually soulful.
It was at about that point that I realized that I wished to pursue my dream. My inspirations are drawn from the reflection of self experience and emotive senses. My work is a developing journey with each painting representing feelings and states of being. I use myself as the physical subject, which feels natural to me because of the introspective nature, stressing the emotion with the encircling background.
I'm interested by the abutment of the literal figurative content against abstract lively forms, which incite 2 different states of mind. The physicality of painting interests me, and I really like to paint energetically, painting almost all of the background with my hand. Apropos artists I'm influenced by Bacon, Freud, and John Piper, and latterly comic artist David Mack who creates attractive characters thru the bleeding of water saturated colors and which electrified the fluidity of my work.